rereading my old blog

i found this "i want to be list"... from dec 12 2007. let's see what 2 years has done.
fulfilled things--> in green
no longer desired things --> italics
halfway done --> pink

travel across Europe... just soaking in sights and sounds, drifting through all the beauty
take photographs that can make people cry
be in a rock band
catwalk on the runway for a hugeass brand
write French and Chinese poetry
be dizzyingly, unreservedly in love, that also happens to be reciprocated...
see the aurora borealis
learn how to scuba dive and go diving...
visit the underground caves in France which have drawings by cavemen
be friendly, confident and at ease in any and every situation
feel like i am living the life i want, where every minute counts for something and does not have to be regretted or justified. the justification is in the certainty of enjoyment.
carry out a project that changes the lives of people in less fortunate situations, that helps them substantially and sustainably...
look at people's pictures on facebook and feel no envy
be genuinely happy for all the blessings other people have without any kind of resentment
treasure all the people i love (family and friends) for all they are worth, and be able to bring them joy instead of always taking from them
feel like i am truly surrounded by unconditional love.. does this sound contradictory to the one before? i just mean to say that i want to feel without a doubt loved, but not to make the people who love me keep giving... i don't know.
be a great capoeirista, and to love every moment of playing ack hahahaha
have energy and dedication and cheer in every aspect of life
put in full effort for all my studies and courses, and get the satisfaction of knowledge accumulation, of rapport with professors/tas, of learning

stop being a quitter...

bake cupcakes

be a sk8ter girl (hahaha) ---> NADIA! HHAHAHAHA PACT OK.

need less sleep... (8 hours max would be nice.)

stop waking up from dreams feeling so disappointed to be face2face with real life...

publish an anthology of poems and have people describe my poetry as "utterly beautiful", and quote it, and get hung up over how well things are expressed

have fresh flowers every other day...

have a steamy hot fling...

have a really cool english name like ariel, or autumn or sophie or delilah. (although sophie is ruined forever because of jy)

be able to let go of things, and stop being obsessive and hung up over every damned thing

watch a meteor shower, in an open plain, with champagne and great company --> OMG no champagne, but check everything else : )

have bigger boobs (HAHA)

lie on the grass, in gentle sunshine, and listen to music...

read great books for the sake of reading, and not for class (though that would make it a 2 in 1) and savour the words and phrases without a sense of urgency, without trying to finish the book as fast as i can

tame bunny

stop having negative/cynical/nasty thoughts pop up...

be good at painting...

stop being so damn lazy

write a successful play about facebook

have je ne sais quoi

keep a plant alive...

stop procrastinating.